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Tuesday, March 17th, 2009
9:47 pm	The Beast It's been 22 days... Maya's gone. She disappeared on February 23rd. The last time I saw her was when I walked her from our place back to her school Sunday evening. We walk hand in hand, talking and laughing. She looked so beautiful standing in the darkness with me. I will never meet anyone who will ever fully understand me, like her. I moved back into my one bedroom apartment tonight. I just had to get out of our old place. Too many memories. Every time I turned a corner, there she was. and now she's gone. Gone. Gone, just like that. I didn't realize saying good night to her that evening would be the last time I ever got to see her. I cry every night without failure. I don't like the way I feel. It's like there this beast inside me that wants to get out. I feel useless. Angry. Numb inside. All my memories of Maya are Happy ones. I don't have a single memory with her that I was not completely happy. Living with her.. living with my girlfriend in a beautiful well kept home. I was doing better than my parents. I had everything. Everything I have ever wanted. Some one who cares for me and loves me, a new brother in Ash and together we made a family. So where do I go from here? This seems to be a pattern for me. I love something, it dies. I loved Maya more than anything. No one will ever replace her. I'm alone again except for Rosco here and my memories of Maya. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 12th, 2009
9:27 pm	Circle of the Crones Maya said she wants me to join the Circle of the Crones now. She says that is more important than is getting married. We can still be together but not married. God it feels weird writing that down. I guess it hadn't really sunk in until now. I'm not gonna make a big deal out of this. I'm lucky to have found a person like Maya. I never dreamed that I would find someone like her. A person to love, to talk to, to be with, to think about, to hold, to protect, to make things right. She's so perfect for me in so many ways. Maybe the whole wedding thing was kinda dumb. I just wanted Maya to know how serious I am about our relationship. The fact that she said yes spoke volumes to me. After all she's a young lady and I'm a fuckin' kid. So I called Asuka and she's setting up, something? But I guess I will have to be initiated? I just hope I don't lose Asuka's respect over this Elyaina thing. I wish I kept my stupid mouth shut. I wish I could be smart like Maya or Allen. I would like to be smarter. Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Friday, January 9th, 2009
11:32 am	Four Women?! I called Allen last night to see how he was doing. I hardly ever see him much anymore. He told me he met a magazine model yesterday and that she offered him sex. Then he told me how uncomfprtable this is making him feel. He said a year ago he had no girls. Now he has four women who would sleep with him and he has special feelings for two others. I told him he needs to get this model, Sky and Erika, Jade, Sara, and Fuu all together and just go wild. He didn't like that idea too much. Of course I told him to stay away from Amanda. He said he was going to and that he only really wants to be with Fuu. I have got to meet this Fuu. She must be something Special for him to turn away so many other women. Allen told me what happened at a party in which Devin, Sara, Fuu, and some others got their drinks spiked. He told me Devin slept with Fuu, who is clearly Allen's GF. I swear, he has someone as attractive as Sara. Why would he do that to his friend's girl like that? That scumbag son of a bitch. Allen did exactly what I would have done, kick his ass. except I would have done a better job at it. Allen's not a fighter, and he doesn't need to pretend to be one. From what Allen told me, it sounded like Devin went easy on him. He could have really fucked Allen up if he wanted to. But Allen forgave Fuu. He's still a little mad at Devin, but that's only natural. Allen told me about the troubles at home too. Apparently his dad took down and removed any and all pictures of Allen's mother and replaced most of them with expensive paintings. Allen can't stand his dad's new GF. She is trying to buddy up with his brother but since Allen doesn't live with them anymore, she wasn't very friendly to him. She's also very young. even his kid brother is eyeing her. But what upset him the most was when his dad told him journalism was a hobby not a career. I think Allen want to be a journalist and his father wants him to carry on the family business. I told Allen to introduce me to Fuu. She must mean a lot to him for him to turn down Erika, Jade, Amanda, and Sky. I just hope Fuu treats Allen better than Sara did. That's why I don't like Sara. I hated the way she would treat Allen. He's a nice guy. He deserves better. I hope he is sucessful to show the world that nice guys don't always finish last. Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 8th, 2009
8:22 am	What A Pal Last night I spoke to Vipus and told him about the trouble I ran into with Morgan and Amanda. Apparently Vipus knows them and said he would speak to each of them for us. Nobody threatens Maya or us. Vipus suggested embracing Maya. That's a sensetive issue. I mean, eventually yes, one day I would like to, but only with her and I guess Ash's permission. I think she needs to at least finish high school. She's so smart, she doesn't need to be cheated out of an education like I was. Maya's been tutoring me on the side a little but it's not the same. I wonder what high school would have been like for me, especially if I had someone like Maya. I know it sounds silly, but I was so disappointed that Maya and I didn't go to her Winter Formal dance thing. I like dressing up all nice and being with my beautiful fiance' dancing the night away. I love Maya. I am so happy being with her. even when she is not arround, I know that she is thinking about me. I sort of wished my parents were around so they could meet her. I never thought in a million years I'd ever be engaged or be getting married. It's so weird. I feel like an adult, up until I stare at myself in the mirror and am reminded of how I actually look. I need to call Elyaina again and see if she is still mad at me. I hope she isn't. I saw Kiri again last night. She helped me not make another mistake the last time I saw her. I wanted to tear Morgan apart for his threats against Maya, but we were in public and I, I might have lost again. I can't risk getting torped or even killed right now. I have to stay around to protect Maya. Maya doesn't seem to like Kiri at all. Personally I have no problem with her. She was a friend of mine before she became a ghoul and recently got that asshole Morgan away from me. I am easily tempered and who knows what might have happened? And Jade... where should I start? Maya suggested that she tone down on the make up and black fingernail pollish. I kept my mouth shut and didn't express the fact that I liked it on her. With all that make up, it did make her look older. If I were Vipus, I would keep a shorter leash on her. Some creep is gonna end up sweet talking her into bed, I know it. I was hoping that creep would be Allen. That, I could live with. But now she claims to hate him so I guess that will never happen. But if our unadopted son and Jade ever got together in the future, then that would sort of make Vipus and Maya and I.. In-laws. Jade thinks the world of Maya, I know that. Maya was giving her suggestion after suggestion and Jade was like, okay. She never argued once with Maya, it was like she wanted someone to tell her what she needs to do. If Vipus is a father figure to Jade, I'd much rather Maya be a mother or big sister figure to her. Erika.. I don't know about anymore. I heard Erika tried to get Allen to sleep with Jade and even called his GF, Fuu to ask her permission. But the fact that his GF said yes to that is scary. Maya said I could do anything on my bachular party with anyone. You know about two or three years ago I would have. I would have banged as many ladies as I could in a single evening. I would live out my fantasy of doing it with two women at the same time. But, there isn't a single super model, actress, or hottie out there that compares to Maya. I couldn't have created a more perfect or more beautiful person than her. She said, because I trust Noah with my life, last night. That made me feel so good inside, special. i am so glad I came to Japan. I am so glad I met her and fell in love with her. I hope she never falls out of love with me. She makes me a better.. person. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Monday, January 5th, 2009
8:52 am	Last night started out so great! I met up with Maya, I ran into an old friend, who just came back into town, Kiri. Things were going well until this muscle bound f**k came up and he and Maya exchanged words. Maya left and I stayed to catch up with Kiri for a little bit. Then I heard Maya yelling. I walked over to her and the Ape, who I learned later was Morgan. He f**king threatened Maya in front of me! What stupid jock @$$hole threatens a young girl anyway? Words are just words. So then Maya leaves and this Jerk Off continues. He even make a reference to f**king my fiance!!!!!!!!!!! He is so DEAD!!!! I was about to F**king tear him apart, when Kiri reminded me that we were in public and drawing a crowd due to our cussing and yelling. She said, "Noah...remember what happened last time?" last time I got into a fight it almost ruined Maya and mine's relationship. but he didn't call me a fag, he threatened Maya and hinted at rape. I just broke my pencil.. see I am so angered by this. I'm calling Asuka tonight. I call Asuka before I do anything. She's my guide, my over fourteen year old intelligence. I've got CLAWS but I have never used them in combat before. I need to talk to Ako as well. I'm not sure if JP has claws yet? Still he is a big guy and I can practice on him and Vipus. Maybe if I kill someone, others will start taking me serious and will think TWICE before messing with Maya or me Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Monday, December 8th, 2008
11:52 am	Maya's Journal Last night I expressed how I sort of regreted missing out on high school. I'll never know what that is like. So, Maya suggested that she keep a journal and I could read her journal to get what the day in the life of Maya at school is really like. I think that's a great idea. I'm sure she will include things about Jade, Devin, Allen, Sara, and her other friends. I don't mind Maya reading my journal, except for the entry about my birthday. It might hurt Maya's feelings, and I don't want that. I look back and I was selfish when I wrote that, thinking only of myself. I guess I'll rip that one up before I offer to let her read it. Hey.. technically I need to rip this entry out too... $h!+. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Friday, November 21st, 2008
12:41 pm	Hit Me! I don't understand? It's a simple request. I just want someone to beat the $h!+ out of me. Is that too much to ask??? i am use to do being beaten whenever I do something wrong or f**k up. But no one here has the balls to HIT ME. even cutting myself open is not enough anymore. I need to feel some pain. Last night I almost called Vipus a hippie so he would hit me. Maybe I should find Niccolo again. At least I know he hits hard. I can't go four years under Frank and two and a half years under Maliq, then... nothing. I need to be beaten, whipped, punched, kicked, burned, thrown.. anything. That will make me feel good inside again. I think I'll go out and pick a fight with someone tonight. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 19th, 2008
11:46 am	I F**king Hate Myself As i sit here in my room, listening to METALLICA, feeling like $h!+, I hate myself. I really hate myself now. I don't wanna see anybody, I don't want anybody to see me. If not for Maya, I'd pack up and leave this f**king city tonight. Noah, you are nothing. You are nothing but a first class f**k up! Only you could anger someone so nice, someone so kind as Elyaina. I mean she was the first person to..to make me feel like part of a real family. She said she was my sister and she even called me her little brother. I have met and known a lot of different people who treated me like their little brother, but Elyaina is my only sister. She knew Maliq, she knew how f**king evil he was to me, how he use to beat me, kick me down stairs, punch me, assault me with crowbars, throw me into The Cumberland River, yank my teeth out with plyers, verbally and physically assault me. Maliq did everything to me except for sexually abuse me, thank god for that cause I wouldn't have been able to stop him. Both Elyaina and I suffered under his hand, and I guess that's when we formed a bond between each other. Elyaina is very very pretty, but I never was attracted to her, so that's why her being my sister seemed to fit so well. That bond was broken Monday night. I was soooooooo excited about receiving a new face and a new body that I let my big mouth run wild. Now Vipus knows, JP knows, Ash, and maybe Miho? I'm not sure. I just.. I just didn't think. It never occured to me that I might be putting Elyaina and her family in any danger. I have been trying so hard for her husband, Ben to respect me like he respects Asuka. Now I've got Elyaina mad at me for opening my dumb ol mouth. It didn't occur to me that someone might kidnap and use Elyaina for their benefit. I just don't THINK LIKE THAT anymore. I'm not evil. I'm just stupid. I'm stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid stupid, stupid. And I don't deserve the gift that my sister was going to give to me afterall. It's not fair for Maya, who is soooooooooo smart to marry someone who is sooooooooo stupid like me. Maliq was right! I'm not smart enough to make it on my own. If I was on my own, I'd be dead by now. This stupid baby face, this stupid baby body is the ONLY reason I am still alive. People just feel sorry for me. Aw, look at the little vampire boy. No one should be embraced at such a young age. I know let's befriend him and pitty him and give he things because he's too young to get a real job. He's too short to be of any use to anyone. Then when people get to know me, they learn what a worthless f**k up I really am. Asuka said something to me that has stuck in my head for years. She once told me that I was a Waste of Blood and a Waste of Space. You know what, she's right. I should have died that night. I should never have been embraced. Another gift I did not deserve. I'm just waiting for Asuka to call me and chew me out. Another person who I respect and care about that will HATE me. Dammit! I was sooo close to getting them to respect me. They probably won't want me to join the Circle of the Crones now. Elyaina, Asuka, and Ben now hate me. How long before Ash, Maya, and Vipus hate me? It will happen. I'll make another stupid mistake and lose everyone that I am close to. I wasn't born smart, I was born dumb. Lousy drug-using parents!! I hate my parents!! I hate werewolves!! and I HATE myself!!!!!!!!!!! I just want to crawl under a rock and die!!!!!!! Current Mood: depressed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 3rd, 2008
11:55 am	what a pisser. well another birthday has come and gone. whatever. i don't care. i have no one to blame but myself. i didn't want to go around telling everyone, "friday's my birthday, friday's my birthday, don't forget my birthday's on friday." like some annoying little kid. i thought most people would remember, since it falls on halloween. i'm almost always left out on halloween. people doing other things. all i wanted was a party. maybe a cake with my name on it? five, six, twelve wrapped up presents for me to rip into. i didn't even get a balloon. i guess this is what growing up means? getting less of everything. Asuka said that turning twenty in japan is a big deal. it means you are an adult. i guess i am an adult now? and as an adult i don't need to feel all down in the dumps here. i just.. i don't know, i just wanted a party of some sort. I wanted Asuka there. I wanted Elyaina there. and for some reason I just knew that Vipus would be there too. like Ash and Vipus would put aside their differences for ME and both show up for ME. I think Ash is a great guy. Vipus is one of my best friends. i thought this would be an opportunity for them to.. ah nevermind. doesn't matter anymore. I at least wanted Asuka there for me. she has been so nice and kind to me... sometimes i wish i was hers. she's the closest thing i have to a parent. i know, because i want to make her PROUD of me. i should just shut up and be thankful for what i have. i have a wonderful fiance, who loves me and has agreed to marry me, I have Ash, Vipus, and Allen who are good role-models for me, i have Asuka, Elyaina, and Ako who will help me as I join The Circle of the Crones. i have a nice place to live and i'm reletivly safe here. i don't blame Maya or anyone. i was the one who ruined Maya's Valentine's Day last year by getting torped. i just wanted a party. i just wanted to feel special for a few hours. well... there's always next year. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Friday, October 31st, 2008
10:59 am	Jade and "The Secret" This has been bothering me for a couple of nights. Vipus said he was thinking about telling Jade his and our secret. I know she's his family, but she is also a fifteen year old girl. I mean, I was embraced when I was fourteen and I was sooo immature back then. I wasn't mentally ready for this. Now that I'm offically twenty I can look back on that. Jade has shown no real interest in what Vipus does during the day. She assumes he is working during the day and with her in school now, I'm sure she thinks about it even less. Of course Vipus works. How else does he afford such a beautiful home and booze I told her once. Jade has only mentioned to me that she wished Vipus would spend more time with her, but that she understood that his work must come first. And Jade has never displayed an interest in the supernatural, at least not to me. She's more into Erika and school now. The only reason she believes in ghosts is because Allen has said he has seen ghosts. If not for that and the fact that others have also seen one, I doubt she would believe in them herself. I am getting my appearence altered to help out Maya and the kindred. No longer will they have an opportunity to ask questions about the boy who wouldn't grow. Oh I plan on doing some growing, wait and see. I'll be taller than Arkady and J.P. one day. No more being short!!! But I don't see Jade as a person who needs to know about us. Hell she's dating a ghoul and still suspects nothing. Teenagers are all into themselves. As long as it doesn't effect them, they don't care. I wanted to suggest setting up Allen and Jade on a date to further distract Jade. Every bun deserves a hotdog. But if she is happy with Erika and Allen is happy with Sara, why mess that up? I kinda like keeping the secret from her. I know that when she graduates, she'll probably go off to some expensive college that Vipus will pay for and she will be free to lead a normal life. I just can't see Jade drinking blood. She's a tough little girl but also innocent in many ways. Last summer Maya and I were her first kiss. And I was the first guy to ever feel her up, with Maya's permission of course. That was an interesting night. But anyway, I hope to have a talk with Vipus soon before he tells her. I just want to express to him that I disagree with this and maybe we should bring in Asuka in on this one. My motto is: Check with Asuka before doing anything. I still hate werewolves. Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 30th, 2008
7:50 am	Bigger Muscles? I have spent the last two hours with my sketch pad designing my new body to be. I am wondering if Elyaina can give me some muscles and a six pack of abs? I want to look good whenever I take my shirt off. I also picked out a NEW hair style that I like. I sure hope Maya likes it. She always says it doesn't matter what I look like on the OUTSIDE as long as I'm the same person on the inside, but.. It must bother her a little. I'd like to be taller, but not too tall. I am curious about my voice. When it changes.. what will it sound like? Will I lose my singing voice? I guess my voice won't crack every now and then like it does sometimes. I told Ash last night about it. He didn't take it the way I thought he would? He was sort of stand off-ish about it. Almost like he wasn't happy for me or happy that I am doing this. Well my mind is made up. I'm doing this for Maya, for the kindred, and I guess for myself. I Do need to grow up. Both mentally and physically. I will be a 16 year old with a 14 year old mind. I wish my brain could continue to develop. I mean, I'm not that smart to begin with. Maya must know that by now. She is sooo smart. And I'm not. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 28th, 2008
11:10 am	A New Face??? I went to see my older sister, Elyaina the other night. She said she had a gift for me. I thought the gift was a photo Album of me at first, but then she told me the REAL GIFT. Elyaina has the power to age me from a 14 year old boy to, well any age. We sort of decided to jump me up to age 16. I think, for Maya's sake I'm going to go ahead and do it. If I were single, then it wouldn't matter, but i don't want people to think Maya prefers younger guys and some of her school friends may start asking questions about me. So I guess I'm doing this for Maya and the other Kindred. But not for myself. I won't be able to act like a kid anymore. Sometimes I like to. I get the "cute kid" look. I do less work, people constantly are buying me stuff and spending money on me. I really, really like that. I like talking about sex, like the other night on the beach. It's cute coming from a 14 year old, who some must think I'm a virgin. But if I look 16, then I will have to change the way that I act. I talk about sex, then I'm no longer cute, I'm a perv. No one really wants to start fights with me either because of my size. If I'm bigger, I might get into more fights. I mean there are some positives. I can get rid of this annoying out of style haircut. I can finally get underarm hair and see what that is like. I can have a deeper voice. I can be taller. My Johnson can be made bigger to Maya's liking. I guess Elyaina will have to touch it to do that? Eeew, that's like a mom or older sister touching it. More hair, bigger balls, maybe a hansome face? I know it's time to grow up, but.. it's like closing another chapter in my life. I said good-bye to my parents, good-bye to Nashville, now good-bye to my 14 year old body. I can become older every year from now on, if Elyaina agrees to help me. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. Maya and I want to tell the mortals that I was in a car accident and that I need plastic surgery. That will account for my sudden face change. From then on it will be gradual. I will not go out in public for a month after my change just to throw everyone off the trail. I guess as long as Maya still loves me, then it really doesn't matter waht I look like, plus I won't embarrass her as much with a grown up look. Okay, I'll do it!! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Friday, October 24th, 2008
11:51 am	Allen and Ghosts I talked to Sara and Devin tonight at the at the mall. All I wanted to do was pick up the Indiana Jones 4 movie box set. But our talk was producive. I learned that there was another ghost attack by the lake and this time two people were hurt and sent to the hospital. Some teacher and Jessie, Madison's daughter, were somehow hurt by this creature with big teeth. Something's going on at that lake. I was told that there were two attacks and Allen was there for both of them, but he has not been hurt either time. Sara asked that I try to keep Allen away from the lake. Yeah, like that's gonna happen. Before this incident he has spent almost every night at the lake..waiting..morning...whatever. For some reason that place is very special to him and if he wants to sneak out to the lake, there is very little I can do to stop him, especially during the day. Actually I haven't really hung out with Allen in about two weeks. I should give him a call tomorrow. Get his side of the story. I suppose to keep him away from a place that I want to visit. Not fair. I am tempted to fly over there, perch on a branch and see for myself. I want to see what this ghost-thing looks like. I can see where Sara is coming from. Both her and Devin seemed to show concern for the boy. I wonder if Allen is still mad at them? I wonder if Maya knows about this ghost-thing? They were both kinda sorta nice to me last night. Devin has agreed to help me with a little purchase order before Halloween. I have no idea what Maya and Ash are planning for my birthday. If mortals are around I will have to pretend I'm some age. But.. If I say I'm sixteen, then I appear YOUNGER than Maya. I can't say I'm seventeen because I don't even look close to seventeen. I don't even have hair under my arms. ::sighs:: This is getting dangerous. I don't want Jade, Allen, or Sara to be asking any questions about me. I guess I'll just tell Maya and Ash to cancel any big plans they made. Kindred only, so I won't have to hide the fact that I'm turning twenty. This sucks. I should have never made friends with the students at Maya's school. Oooh, here comes that sinking feeling. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 16th, 2008
11:50 am	Hunting and Parties Be wery, wery quiet... I'm hunting Bedlams. I have sharpened up two wooden stakes and placed them in my backpack, which I will now carry with me at all times. I also will once again carry my dagger with me. I'll patrol around where Bedlam's music store is. Who knows? Maybe I'll get lucky? Talk about a birthday present for Maya!!! Happy Birthday, here's what's left of Bedlam in the box. I soooo hope it's me that finds him. When I see him, I see Maliq. I think I'll start decorating the apartment kinda early. I haven't okayed if Ginko is allowed to come to our place. I need to do that. I wish Vipus could come, but I'm hoping that we can move the party to his place later that night. I'll invite Jade and Allen and Ginko, but not Erika. And NOT Sara. I can't believe she hung up on me! That just ticks me off. I never got the opportunity to tell her WHY I called her in the first place. Oh well.. I guess she'll never know. I usually try and stay out of other people's affairs, but when I do make the effort and get silenced like that... grrrr. I hope Allen dumps her or she dumps him. That Ginko is kinda okay looking, but Jade is cuter and has bigger breasts. Allen better stay away from Maya too. I appreciate him being honest with me several months ago. And I can understand him liking Maya..who wouldn't??? I'm not gonna worry about it, even though Allen did go behind Will's back with Ginko. But I trust Maya 100% and I know he's not her type. I guess I will pick up the cake Friday evening. I better feed in a little while so I will be able to participate in the eatting and drinking festivities. I sure hope Maya likes what I got her. I'm not the best present wrapper though. The picture turned out really nice. I'll just die if she doesn't like it. It's something personal and it's from me. I just wish I had more money to buy her more things. F**king werewolves. I hate werewolves. Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 14th, 2008
11:46 am	The Love Doctor? I got a call late last night, from my best friend Allen. After I spent ten minutes calming him down, I learned that Sara has started to move some of her stuff into Devin's new apartment and will eventually live with him. I swear, thoes two deserve one another. I told Allen that it's probally an age-thing. Devin's nineteen..eighteen? And Sara's seventeen and already mature for her age. Allen is only sixteen and despite his high IQ and his willingness to help others, he is not really "mature" yet. He told me he felt like they went behind his back and didn't mention this to him before the fact. I agree. Moving in with someone is a big f**king step. I love Maya more than life itself, and I even understood that you need to think about a LOT of things before blindly jumping in to live with someone. I have never heard Allen so angry before. You can always tell when he switches to swearing. He is so angry at Sara right now. I told him it's misplaced aggression. He is blaming Sara, when he should be talking to her. I guess I will be the good friend and call Sara tonight. Maybe I can help put things back right? And if that wasn't enough, Ginko told Allen last night how much she really cares for him and maybe even loves him. He told me he made a remark about how he just wants to be in a relationship with one person not two (or three.. who knows?). So I told him, he's upset with Sara and he is vulnerable and it's easy for him to run to Ginko. I don't know how Ginko feels about him. I don't know how Sara feels about him? I guess I'll find out tonight. Now would be the perfect opportunity for Jade to jump on Allen, but she's happy with Erika. Plus, I know that Deep down, Allen really loves Sara. He may not be able to be with her in life, but I think he has given his heart and soul to her. Allen told me, he wished Sara and him would be like Maya and I. I told him Sara is NOT Maya, and he is NOT me. You can't go through life comparing yourself to others and expect to be happy. F**king teenagers, they don't know what they want in life. All I know is I won't be a teenager for much longer. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Monday, October 13th, 2008
12:01 pm	Wedding Bells Things are just getting better and BETTER!!! I talked to Asuka and invited her to be apart of our ceremony and she is coming to it. I still need to call Elyaina and Ben and some other folks. I was hoping for a small ceremony but it looks like with all the people we know it will more than likely be a HUGE CELEBRATION. Nothing is ever etched in stone for us, but we were looking at December 22nd to be the date of our wedding. I still can't believe this is happening. Do I really get a chance at happiness? Almost everyone I've talked to is on our side, except for Bedlam who is not invited.. bastard. Well, I guess everyone needs one enemy, including me. I spoke to Sara and later Allen. I think we patched things up and we should be able to go back to being friends again. Maybe I was wrong about Sara? She seems to care for him and he obviously cares a great deal for her. He's got a good heart,I just hope he doesn't get it broken. In three months and nine days I will be a married man. I feel so grown up on the inside. I don't even care what I look like on the outside anymore. I have Maya, friends, and respect. I couldn't ask for anything more. Well, maybe some more money. Hell this ceremony is really gonna run into a lot of money. I hate werewolves! Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 8th, 2008
12:25 pm	Buddist Priests Okay, so I didn't get a chance to speak with the Shogun, but last night I spoke on the phone with Tomi. She's like second in charage around here. I was as polite as I possibly could be to her. She has emailed me the names and numbers of two priests who can perform our marriage ceremony. Everything is falling into place. All i have to do now is speak with Asuka. Do I join Circle of the Crones first? Do I get married first? Maya and I sat down and made the list of who to invite and the list grew and grew. I'll wait and see who Maya picks as her maid of honor, either elise or Jade. Well, I think either way I will ask Allen if he will be my best man. I admire his level-headedness and maturity. I will also invite Asuka to our wedding. I hope she comes. It would mean a lot to me.. soooo much if she came to it. I'm still hurt that I wasn't good enough to stay or live with her. I would hae picked living with Maya anyway, but the fact that... ah, nevermind. Ash is going to be there for Maya. I want Asuka to be there for me. I think I hate all werevolves. Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 7th, 2008
11:21 am	The Meeting Well, I did it. I submitted a request to speak with the Shogun, the numero-uno of this place. I am very nervous about speaking with her. I mean, back in Nashville under Luciana, I wasn't as frightened. Hell I even asked her out once. She totally said no, of course. But I at least liked and respected Luciana. I don't much care for this one though. She belittled me in front of everyone last time we spoke. I'd rather be whipped and beaten than to be embarrassed like that again. Well, it will be a private meeting so, maybe it won't be as bad as last time. Maybe I'll get a chance to get to know her? I'm sure she's not all that bad. Maybe we just got off on the wrong foot? But I'm still a little scared. I'd only do something like this for Maya. They say, love makes a man do brave things, well here's the proof. I wish I could tell the shogun that Maya is no longer bound, but I won't. I promised Maya. I just want to be with Maya and maybe get a little respect from thoes that I have grown fond of and actually care what THEY think. Asuka, Ash, Vipus, Maya, Ako, Elise, Elyaina.. hell even Ben. Is it really too much to ask for to have Love, Respect, and a little Power? (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 2nd, 2008
12:33 pm	Last Night Last night, Maya my girlfriend... I mean my fiance' and I shared something special together. She has been freed from her bond by her brother Ash, which I think is great! He called me last night and asked me if I would continue to feed Maya. That was a great honor for me. I told Ash i'd be honored to do that. So Maya and I went up to our bedroom and it happened. She let me pick the location from which to feed her and I chose my inner thigh. It felt sooo good. I can't describe the pleasure she brought me. But when she was done feeding she didn't stop there. She kept pleasuring me. I felt bad for only accepting pleasure and not giving it back to Maya in return. Afterwards, we just held each other and talked. I am so content and happy with Maya. I mean I have loved others or thought I was in love with others before. But Maya blows them all out of the water. She is PERFECT for me. I hope I am perfect for her. I'm always afraid that something is going to happen, we're gonna break up, or one of us will get hurt badly or die. Something BAD always happens to me whenever I am having it good for too long. I want this to last forever. I want to marry Maya Mitnick. I want the world to know that I am hers and she is mine. I trust her so much, I love her so much... maybe too much? And I don't care what thoes other kindred might think. I might not be too traditional, being a kindred in love with a ghoul, but my embrace was not traditional either. Not many fourteen year old kindreds out there. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 16th, 2006
12:42 am	VTR "Everything before this was the vtm version of Noah, and everything after it will be the VTR version" (Comment on this)